I’ve never been a big advocate of change. I just believe if there’s nothing wrong with it, then it shouldn’t be change or “fixed” some how. I love the people that I see and the comfortable routine of my day. I know I said I can’t wait to graduate to be done with learning and being here surrounded by all these idiots in school, at the same time, I don’t want to end because I know I will be separated from my loved ones. I’ve spent 4 years with the people I am so comfortable being around. I’ve created a strong bond of trust and friendship with these people. I know we will still be friends but just the thought of not being able to see them everyday really makes me sad. I tear up thinking about it once in a while. I don’t like change. The thought of going into a big university and starting new in a big environment is really bittersweet. I can make new friends and create new bonds, but I still want to hold onto the ones I’ve already created. Maybe I’m selfish I guess, I want everyone I love to be near me because that’s the only way I would feel comfortable. The possibility of friends drifting away also haunts me. I don’t want to look back 20,30 years from now and wonder who went where and how we stopped talking. I know I can prevent it, but really it all just depends on where life takes us now. Maybe I’m not ready yet or I’m scared.. or both.
Also I won’t see my boyfriend everyday, which suuuuucks even more.
Let’s be honest… Who wouldn’t want an 18x20 picture of us? We are gorgeous people! But in all honesty I am glad to have spent 2-3 years suffering in tutoring and SAT classes with them. UB has been a big part of my high school career and I am sad I will no longer be dictator- I mean, senior representative of UB. 😪 Hehe just kidding… #upwardboundwestminster #seniordicator